Wednesday, November 19, 2008

DAy 19 The older I get

The older I get the faster time flies by. Soon my little one will be another year old. She is no longer young can make her mind up on her own. She still needs mama for many things but she
really is all grown up.
The older I get the worse things sometimes seem to get my life has been in a downhill motion
since Februray I pray ,pray things will get better soon this is crazy that I have a fear of driving
I can't sleep at nite because I see us being hit by a car. I put on brakes when I see someone coming out of a driveway the thing is I'm the passenger so how does that work. The only way I can sleep consecutive now is to take a sleeping pill that does the trick for maybe 4-5 hrs depends on the day. I do not want to be on these medications a person can go broke taking this stuff. I've tried on my own to get off to see how things would be but it makes my condition worse even being on them I'm not 100%. I still have fear each time I get in the car I will be hit. I know accidents are random see psychartrist isn't gonna do anything for the fear.. That has been a suggestion plus I'm not a bank the insurance company expects me to bank roll them.. That's so fair I really want to be able to drive again without being in fear each time I get in the car it's been almost 9 months now since we've been hit and I still have fear the guy is either gonna come after us or something.. Maybe it's the age thing. All I know is I want my driving back my husband thank the lord for him drives me everywhere.. or Debbie drives when we go.. I just wanat that part of my life back maybe that will help with other parts.?
Ramblings over

7 comments:

Pinky said...

Bleh I hate dealing with anxiety...it takes so much energy and you feel so guilty over it. ):

Dolores said...

Oh Liz I hope things get better soon

evafromca said...

Awwww...Liz, I went through a time of my life, when I just couldn't get on the freeway, but thankfully it passed. It will for you, too, I am sure, just keep asking for it to go away. Hugs to you!!!

TraceyT said...

I, too, hope things improve.

SuzanneRenee said...

I must say that time heals all wounds. There is not telling how long it will take - but it *will* pass. {{hugs!!}}

Shirley said...

Hope things get better for you. I can understand your fear but hope you can overcome it. Hugs girl!

Amie said...

praying for ya, Liz!